彩虹 | Cai Hong | Rainbow

yeah.. Jay's new song..

after watch the MV...
dunno say what..
very sad..

here is the MV..




十一月四日
4th november

如果能让我重新再来一次
if i was given a chance again,

我希望我不会出现在你生命理
i wished that i never appear in your life.


02:09
宝贝！你终于考上了
Baby (like honey, etc)! You finally passed (means he qualified to go to a school)

02:14
你怎么不开心啊!
Why aren't you happy?

02:26
我很快就回来啦!
I'll be back soon!

03:30 - 03:47
当我知道自己的生命 只剩下一个月的时间
When I knew that I have only one month left to live,

我唯一害怕的是 面对你的难过
the only thing I was afraid of was to face your sadness.

所以我选择离开
So I chose to leave.

对不起 我骗了你
I'm sorry that I lied to you.

谢谢你陪我去 我们曾经去过的地方
Thank you for accompanying me go to places we went to.

我会把它带到天堂
I'll bring it to heaven.

ya.. i read the lyric also..
... here is the lyric..

曲： 周杰倫
Qu : Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

詞： 周杰倫
Ci : Zhou Jie Lun
Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: sesamestreet - www.jay-chou.net

哪裡有彩虹告訴我
Na li you cai hong gao su wo
Can someone inform me where the rainbow is?

能不能把我的願望還給我
Neng bu neng ba wo de yuan wang huan gei wo
Can you return my wish back to me?

為什麼天這麼安靜
Wei shen me tian zhe mo an jing
Why is the sky still so calm?

所有雲都跑到我這裡
Suo you yun dou bao dao wo zhe li
All the clouds have amassed above me


##有沒有口罩一個給我
You mei you kou zhao yi ge gei wo
Do you have a spare face mask to lend me?

釋懷說了太多就成真不了
Shi huai shuo le tai duo jiu cheng zhen bu liao
Because I said too much, now it will not eventuate

也許時間是一種解藥
Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao
Maybe time is an antidote

也是我現在征服下的毒藥
Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao
Maybe I am now overcoming this poison

看不見你的笑 我怎麼睡得著
Kan bu jian ni de xiao wo zen me shui de zhao
Without seeing your smile, how can I sleep?

你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到
Ni de shen ying zhe me jin wo que bao bu dao
Your shadow is so close yet I cannot hug you

沒有地球太陽還是會繞
Mei you di qiu tai yang hai shi hui rao
The sun will continue orbiting even without the Earth existing

沒有理由我也能自己走 ##
Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou
I can walk away (from you) without a reason


**你要離開 我知道很簡單
Ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan
You want to leave, I know it is (a) simple (thing)

你說依賴 是我們的阻礙
Ni shuo yi lai shi wo men de zu ai
You said reliance was the major barrier between us

就算放開 那能不能別沒收我的愛
Jiu suan fang kai na neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai
If I choose to let go, that cannot remove my love for you

當作我最後才明白 **
Dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai
I'll just pretend that I understand in the end


Repeat ## **


RAP
看不見你的笑要我怎麼睡得著
Kan bu jian wo de xiao yao wo zen mo shui de zhao
Without seeing your smile, how can I sleep?

你的身影這麼近我卻抱不到
Ni de shen ying zhe me jin wo que bao bu dao
Your shadow is so close yet I cannot hug you

沒有地球太陽開始會繞…會繞
Mei you di qiu tai yang kai shi hui rao … hui rao
The sun will continue orbiting even without the Earth existing…orbiting

沒有理由我也能自己走掉
Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou diao
I can abandon (you) without a reason

是我說了太多就成真不了
Shi wo shuo le tai dou jiu cheng zhen bu liao
Because I said too much, now it will not eventuate

也許時間是一種解藥…解藥
Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao… jie yao
Maybe time is an antidote… antidote

也是我現在征服下的毒藥
Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao
Maybe I am now overcoming this poison


Repeat **

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如果能让我重新再来一次
if i was given a chance again,

我希望我不会出现在你生命理
i wished that i never appear in your life.

Temple Thien Hou...

After long time...
i'm now back...
with my blog...

yesterday i try to post blog using my new handphone.. LOL
but don't know why can't publish..
type many things there.. then all lost..can't save..

anyhow...
currently.. i have enter a new stage of my life..
these few days.. don't know why.. don't like to stay at office...
everyday wait lunch time... after lunch time.. wait 6.00...
then go home..

until yesterday.. also same.. , reach mid valley..
got no bus..., got many peoples... crowded...
can't go in to bus and back..
haih.. go where..
think think..
yeah.. go my favourite place..




haha... last time.. i went to there.. i no take picture..
but this time i got new hp..
haha.. sure take some picture.. ^^

day time.. got many idea.. on how to write the blog... but..
until now.. all lost d

Just reach there... first picture...
haha.. last time.. i went there...
there very silence 1..
but today.. don't know why.. got so many cars.. peoples... doing exercise and tai chi..


12 zodiac ... cow.. rat... etc..


long silence road..
don't know why.. i quite like this picture..
it symbol my future life...


the entrance to the pray hall..
ya.. pray more God... automatically got God protect..


Front view..


let's exercise.. tai chi..


keep on taking picture.. hehe


big loceng..


try to get a good point of view..


texture...


nice?


complex texture..


try playing around with close up image and background...


..


somehow.. i like this picture also.. ^^
the dragon and the phoenix together...

after taking so many picture..
is time to go home lo...
later too late d.. and no bus..

on the way the the bus stop..
the flower greet me..


the fragrance smells good also.. =)

..

wah.. look back.. so long this post..

crazy

ok..
every morning.. i so cold..
so lazy
so sleepy..

also i'll serve you the hot water for you to bath..
coz worried you get cold..

but end up this morning..
i heard you said "crazy"
for what i have done for you..

ok...
i know de...

demotivation

haih...

sienz

for me..
to do things.. i need motivation..

when you have no motivation to do...
you spend how long also can't finish..
you do what also can't be good ...
you got what good idea also will become worse idea..

thought tonight wan to do coding..
start up with quite good motivation..
find find find...
finally found a free web hosting.. that support php and mysql..
yeah.. so nice..
web hosting.. is ready..
then will proceed to design and coding lo..

something happened in the middle..

end up zzz
sienz..
no mood to do..


haiz... haiz..
zzz

let's talk about the blog title..
what is demotivation?
what is the meaning actually?
why demotivation will happen?
what cause demotivation?
how to demotivate people?

wah... so many question..
ok... first.. start answer the first question..
what is demotivation?
to understand demotivation.. you first need to understand the meaning of motivation..
when you are passionate to doing something... then this is motivation.. at behind making you passionate..
example.. ah beng like to eat ice cream... but he is lazy to doing home works...
then his mother.. will reward ah beng an ice cream.. once ah beng.. complete the homeworks...
the lazy ah beng.. will got motivation to fast fast complete the homework.. because he wan to eat the ice cream..
that is the meaning of motivation..
so.. what is demotivation?
demotivation is the opposite meaning of motivation..
when ah beng.. passionate to complete the homeworks...
then suddenly ah beng heard a news that the ice cream already finish..
the lazy ah beng already no mood to continue his homeworks..
this is one of the example of demotivation..

this is another example..
ah beng like to eat ice cream...but every time.. when ah beng brought the ice cream..
and start eating the ice cream.. there is a mosquito keep on flying in front of ah beng's face..
it is very irritating ah beng to enjoy the delicious ice cream...
then suddenly... mosquito bang in to ah beng's ice cream...
zzz
ah beng already no mood to finish the ice cream..
the mosquito.. keep on disturbing ah beng at beginning.. and finally bang to the ice cream...
and make ah beng demotivate to enjoy the ice cream...

you also may list out as many as possible example of demotivation..


what is the meaning actually?
the meaning actually is.. ah beng already no mood to complete the things..
motivation is the power at behind.. pushing the people moving forward to the target..
when demotivation comes in, the power has been weaken..
that means... ah beng already no power to move on already..

why demotivation will happen?
when we put hope in to something..
when we want something...
when we want our plan to work in that way..
but what we want.. can't be done...

what cause demotivation?
when we got hope.. and wishing to get something...
we will do anything to reach the dream..
but.. in the middle of it.. something bad happen..
this making you can't reach the dream as your plan..
and making you demotivate to complete the dream..

how to demotivate other peoples?
do something that other peoples don't like..
haha


i hate demotivation....
and.. i love motivation..
when got motivation..
everything can be done...
impossible will become possible....

but for demotivation..
possible also will become impossible...
99% complete.. also will end up fail at the end..

after all..
how to fight with demotivation?
don't put hope..?
don't wish anything?
don't want anything...?
mute your eyes..?
mute your ears..?
mute your sense..?
or you got any idea?

路小雨

Jay Chou 周傑倫\Secret 不能说的秘密 OST\15 路小雨.mp3

i felt more sad than this 路小雨.mp3

keep on hear.. also can't make me cure..


小芋 wo chen de hen kua ju ni...

ni jai na li?

ni ai bu ai wo?

wo hen ai ni................

my task..

is lunch time again..
haha.. i compare today to last few days..
today got a bit of time to write blogs..
now office are silent..
boss go out liow..
inside my room..
no people here...
haha.. is my time to rest rest / snake snake..=p

now settling some minor things for previous job...
after that.. then move to new project lo..

since from the first day i worked at here..
i have been doing many different type of website..

my first task is.. do the photo gallery for a company that selling vehicles, and spare parts..
at here i see some beautiful sports cars..

then continue with vitamins and pills website..
haha... at here... got some newpaper cutting and magazine cutting.. talking about the girl become slim.. etc... got some pretty girls picture also.. LOL...

then follow by a chinese medical websitte..
here.. looks at many auntie photo.. talking about how they recover after eat the medicene..

the most troublesome website.. -> the college website..
this website.. is about a mechanical website... deal with many course programmes.. college info.. etc..
it's haunted me for some of the time..
here is where.. i stress alot... and keep on do do do...
i also went to customer site.. haha..
had a hard time there.. and finally the website complete.. and launch..

most of the time.. i'm handling more than one project at a time..
i also deal with a hotel furniture supplier website..
this website also.. damage me alot..
the cart system.. online buying....discount, quantity.. added cost.. shipping.. @@
i have to make sure everythings.. run smoothly..
also make me headache for few days...

currently.. on my hand also got a online flower purchasing website.. an e-commerce website..
selling flowers... gifts.. at here.. i saw many flowers...
still working it out..
i'm quite like this website.. haha..
it is like my baby..the designer just give me the design.. and picture..
then i have to do all things by my self...
the coding part are from 0.. to 100% also need to done by me..
currently.. still doing it..
at the day.. when this website launch.. i'll be very happy =)

this morning... my boss brief me.. about a travel website..
haha.. after so many different type of website..
from.. cars, medicine, college, furniture... etc.. and many many..
now i'm going to travel lo..
next project will be a travel website..
this website got many pictures of different country land mark lo..
hehe..
ya.. this website.. i also have to code it all by myself..

keep on code ah...
keep on learn ah...
keep on stress ah..
keep on headache ah..

lunch time lo

haha.. lunch time again..
is the time.. i eat my lunch.. and rest..

still the same.. many problem.. waiting me to solve..
deadline.. already over.. still fixing the old task..
at the same time.. new job are flooding in..

keep on do do do ah.....
very missed some one..
but i can't do anything..
don't know what should i do..
only sometime..can go friendster see see her picture..

back to my job..
the boss said.. today meeting.. with customer..
but until now.. still don't have any instruction from the boss..
but this morning.. i got saw a leng lui customer come.. and the boss meet with her de..
is that i no need go for the meeting?
or my meeting with the customer is later on.. after this?
i dunno..

but if no meet also good..
i can have time to do my code..

know someone is headache.. and jari pain...
feel like want to ask her why her jari pain..
is it typing.. do coding until jari pain?
or the jari kena bang on the drawer?
or how?
how is it? very pain?.. etc..
but...

hope her will take care..
don't do coding until so late lo..
rest more la.. sleep early..
...

dunno how is her lunch..
dunno her got go eat lunch or not le?
or just eat bread..
...

anyhow..
anyway..


i also dunno..

haiz.. food already wan to finish..
means i need to start do coding again lo..
choing ah... solve the problemmmmm.......

working lo

yu....

working lo..
today.. like normal.. also a bit lazy..
haha..
but still got many works need me to do..
still got many problem haven't solve..

after solve.. the discover another problem..
really problem..
head also big liow..

anyhow..
boss yesterday told me..
you no need stay at office so late liow.. next time..
two weeks later.. i give you a laptop..

wah.. laptop..
if back to last time.. he give me laptop .. i'll be very happy..
because i can carry it to somewhere..
but now..
cannot lo.. i only carry the laptop to home only.. no use de..
and .. dunno also... this boss.. is simply say or really 1..
if really give me laptop.. then i think i'll got more things to do lo..
go home still need to do..
anytime.. need to on call de..
so sad..because the laptop only can carry to my home only..
and need to do more things de..
maybe good also.. haha.. can use jobs to mabukkan diri.. @@
but it is really hard..

the boss told me also.. next time.. i have to manage project myself already..
which means.. i need to meet with customer.. do the website..do the coding.. fight with the timeline..and manage the project..
wah.. looks like.. upgrade a bit liow.. can say.. is "Trainee Project Manager".. LOL
but no people under me.. only me alone "one leg kick"..
.. that means.. need to do many things lo..
good also.. can learn.. learn and learn..

today.. later.. need to join boss... and meeting with customer at office lo..
he said.. next time.. bring me go outside.. meet customer also..
next time.. i have to handle myself..
this is what he said..
dunno how la..

anyhow...
no body.. share my happiness.. or sadness together with me..
blog ah.. blog... you are my good friend now de...

walking in the rain..

recently,
the weather really cold..
always raining..
very stress..
very sad...

now is my lunch time lo..
go working.. wait for lunch time..
after lunch time.. wait for 6.00pm..

but.. everytime.. until 6.00.. i still didn't go back..
still stay in the office.. until a little bit late..
because go home also don't know do what..

then stay at office do coding..
but.. recently.. really can't do coding..
the problem.. can't solve.. until today..
the boss request.. need to done it on monday..
today is wednesday lo..

still keep on doing..
haiz..
until a bit lost.. where am i..
feel like don't wan code...
feel like.. wan to write blog..
take this lunch time.. to writing blog...

but.. duno how..
inside heart.. got many many things to write out..
but until here.. duno how to write it out..

anyhow..
recently.. really cold...
in the mid night.. cover how many blanket also no use..
at the office wear two cloth also can't tahan..
sometime.. very cold until no feeling already..
already sot sot..

raining..
the sky like to rain these few days..
don't know is the sky purposely one or just raining..
go to office raining.. back from office raining.. in the office also raining..
already very cold..
the sky want "cold above add cold"..

but on the other side..
i found out that..even is very cold..
when raining, i don't like to use umbrella..
i like the feeling walking in the rain..

the rain drop on the floor..on my head.. no my body..
i feel very calm..
body get wet a bit.. never mind la..

walking in the rain..
one of my friend.. get sick.. after walking in the rain..
but surprisingly, i didn't get sick..

sometime.. when going back home after finish working..
the problem still haven't solve..
i felt very tired, headache, and.. feel like a bit like.. sick..
the road... is very far.. very long..to reach home
need to change buses..
still keep on walking..

feel like wan to sick..
but i didn't sick.. didn't have fever..
sometime.. hope to have fever..
at least.. run away from the real world.. and rest rest..
and.. MC.. is paid leave.. haha.. so nice.. no need work.. also got money..

anyhow.. i'm still no sick.. no fever..
now the weather.. are cloudy..
looks like after this.. is going to have heavy rain..
if got chance...
i will still walking in the rain..

my new friend

haiz..

recently.. i have met a new friend..
don't know why.. i always meet with this new friend..
we become close friend ler..

i hate to meet with this new friend actually..
but the people around me..
the accident happened around me..
or maybe me, myself..

put hope..
put heart..
put everything..
by using real heart..

the more hope..
the more heart..
the more real..
make me meet with this new friend more..

maybe i need to learn these words..
dun care la..
never mind la..
up to you..

anyway, nice to meet you.. my new close friend.. disappointed..

my complain letter ^^

Complain about the unreasonable shouting towards the passenger, will it ruin Visit Malaysia 2007?

Note: I think that this is an issue that happened in Malaysia that can’t be ignore, so that I CC my complain letter to Tourism Malaysia, MyFM, The Star Press, China Press. I hope you take a notice on this issue.

To Whom It May Concern:

My Name is xxx, a fresh graduate from UTAR with a Degree in Computer Science. Currently, I’m working in an office as a programmer, the office locate at opposite Sunway. I’m taking public transport to the office.

I prefer to take Rapid KL buses, because we can buy the daily pass with only RM 2 and it can be reuse for whole day. I have many stories about my bus rides. I chase for bus before; I waited the bus for one hour then the bus only come; I saw the bus driver smoking; when I’m on board, I saw the bus driver didn’t stop at the bus stop when there is people at the bus stop there putting up their hand and ask the bus to stop, etc.

All of that, I’m also lazy to go make any complain, but today I felt that I must do this, I must “COMPLAIN”. The incident happens on 19^th July 2009, 6.50PM, opposite Sunway bus stop. I can take bus U63, U67 or U76 to go home, but normally, during this peak time all of the bus also be crowded. Yet, the people who are waiting at the bus stop will go up the bus even the bus is crowded, people stand side by side, some time even worse is standing and squeeze until shoulder pressing with others’ shoulder. It is too many people to fit in to the crowded bus and the duration for the next bus to come is very long.

Normally, when the buses are crowded, the bus driver will ask the passenger to go in the bus by using back door. Sometime no need ask also the passenger will go up the bus by the back door with the bus ticket. This happens because people inside the bus prefer to stand at the front part of the bus instead to stand on the behind of the bas. This will cause jam at the front part and not able to let the other passengers to go in the bus. Here come the usage of the back door for the passenger to go in the bus and fill up the behind part of the bus.

Today this case happened to me, the bus came and it is crowded. Therefore I show my ticket to the bus driver and go inside the bus by using the back door. The behind part are always more free compare to the front part of the bus. There is no seat, so I stand at there and wait the bus to go. Suddenly, the bus driver shouted and asking for the person that goes inside the bus by using the back door. That is me, I thought he wants to see my bus ticket, and then I show him my ticket. Again he unreasonably shouts to me in front of so many people with these words “KAMU TURUN SEKARANG!!!” He keeps on shouts these words with no manner for few times. Therefore, I walk to the drivers there and talk with him. When I reached in front of him, he shouted me again “KAMU TURUN SEKARANG!!!” Okay, I don’t know what happen to this bus driver. I felt that he is humiliating me in front of so many people.

I ask for his name in a good manner “Siapa nama kamu?” He shouted me with “KAMU TURUN SEKARANG!!!” Okay!, I clarify with him that I’ll go down from the bus, but I wanted to know his name. I ask for his name again “Siapa name kamu?” He insists to tell me his name and same response from him, he shouted to me with “KAMU TURUN SEKARANG!!!”

Okay, I go down from the bus, and I directly record down the vehicle registration number and details in my hand phone. The following is the details:

Bus Company: Rapid KL

Vehicle Registration Number: WPL 748
Bus Number: U63

Incident Time: 6.50PM

Date: 19^th July 2007
Incident Location: Opposite Sunway Bus Stop

I don’t know what action you will take when you receive this mail, maybe you will just press the delete button. I want nothing from you; I just don’t hope to see the same incident happen to others. I’m started to worry about how other foreigner will think about Malaysia if this incident happen on them. This year is Visit Malaysia 2007. Many tourists will come to Malaysia and visit. Public transport plays an important role in here. Many of the tourists do not own any transport; therefore they will take the public transport. If the drivers still carrying this attitude to provide such services to the customers, I’m sure that the tourists will feel bad about Malaysia. Even the Malaysian also feels shame. Are this is the right manner to welcome/provide services to peoples?

Visit Malaysia 2007 is a successful or a tragedy is depending on how Malaysian welcomes/serves the visitors. Say frankly, I’m very disappointed with the services, manner and attitude.

Regards..

drop down box..

cham ler... now already late... 8 pm liow..
i still not yet finish the drop down box...
do it for whole day already.. still can't settle it..
i today promised the customer.. "tomorrow you open the website... then the problem are solved de.."

but until now.. i think that tomorrow the customer will be very angry..
because the drop down box... still cant drop down..

previously.. i already done it.. it works fine for IE 7, Mozilla..
mana tau.. customer.. using IE 6..
the problem occur... i try to solve it for whole day liow.. still can't solve it...
in the office only now left me alone...
no other people.. i'm alone again...

with limitation of knowledge about php and css..
i only can keep on do do do... how come.. it can't works.... many problem rise...
try to call boss.... for help...
the call... enter to the voice mail..


what else i can do to solve the problem?
this single problem.. i still can't solve it...
behind there... still got many task waiting me.. and it is keep on adding...
at the office only me.. do the coding...


arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~

no body hear me...

10 July 2007

maybe infected from drama..
i today suddenly feel like wan to write a blog..

i got many thing need to speak out..
but.. i today found that.. i have no body to talk to..

find ppl to counseling me? no la..
talk to my friends.. best friends? no la..
online chat? also no la...
talk to gf? ... she are not interested to hear.../ i don't have gf anymore..

where i can speak out my heart?
maybe i type it out.. and post it.. at a place that no ppl know...
this blog only got one ppl know...
maybe .. i should delete this blog.. and create a new 1...
so that it become a place that no ppl know..

i ask my self... do you really don't wan to let other ppl know? no..
i hope to share all my feeling... all my things to the readers of this blog.. which is only one person.. my wife...

but.. now i no more wife liow..
anyway la..

here what happen to me today..
already a week i work at the company...
everything is ok..
then suddenly.. today.. i'm asked to go customer site.. to solve problem..
it is a bit exciting.. and... worried... anyway.. i just go there..

meet the customer.. then the customer... tell me and my collegue all the problem..
some time.. ask me until me "hau ngar ngar".. i duno how to solve that..
or.. aik.. that is my mistake in the code.. haha. how am i going to explain to customer?
i said.. ok.. i'll solve it.. tomorrow morning.. you open the website.. then the problem will solved...

after meet.. the customer..
i bring back many problem.. to the office..
i got many task need to do..
previous job still not yet finish.. now add more..
at the same time.. i handle few project..
...

feel like wan to type sms.. feel like.. wan to make a call...
but no more...
my heart... my life.. my self and my love... all buried in the deep deep sea.. with all this problem.. and never see them again.. only can see the sea...of tears drops..... bye bye...

da da

Firstly.. i no force you to read this..
i just write what i felt and think..

don't wan say much..
just feel like.. wanted to say and mark down these few phrases..

“Dating are strictly not for three person, please don't do this unless you want to ruin the relationship...”

“Walking alone on street at cold, dark and silent night are not scare,
but knowing that I'll be alone after the sunrise.. that make me very scare..”

“No matter what happen, I'll always wish you good in future...”

Thanks you very much.. I'm really appreciate the time we spend together..
I promised to take care you for your whole life..
and do many many things..

I'm sorry... i can't make it..

hope someone more more good than me can make it...

slowly by slowly.. I'll disappear in your eyes sights....
when i not around.. i hope you will take care .. etc...
bye..

from,
da da
(this is the last time i use this name.. there is no more da da...)

Michael Buble - Lost

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the right man was on the wall
If I don't land
Days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late
'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear to fall
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seem to changed
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

You leaved me during the time when i need you the most..

Last time..
when the son fall sick..
the mother will rush to buy medicine, food, 100 plus
and find the son.. and take care of him..
stay beside him.. take a wet cloth to put at the forehead for cooling the heat..
the mother do what ever she can to make the son feel better and recover...

so sad..
the mother fall sick..
when people falling sick.. that people will feel needy..
hope to be accompany by the most important person..

finally end up with the son left the house and leave the mother..
going out to having dinner with friend..
and saying that the mother is the lamp that block the son's activity..

the mother have to go back home alone..
then walk to the shop to buy the medicine, bread...
while still very sick.. headache, leg pain..fever.. hot..

in the dark dark room.. very hot head and body..
the mother sleep after eat the medicine..

wake up in the mid night..
the body and head still feel hot...
the medicine.. seems like no use..

then change and eat other medicine..
on the morning.. wake up de.. feel better..
looks like.. no fever already..

then go to the office alone.. the weather was very hot..
reach there early a bit..
but the boss are busy meeting with other people..
the mother have to wait..

after meeting..
it was quite late..
the mother plan to go sg.wang..
go to take bus.. but wait for long time.. don't have bus..

finally the bus come.. on the way, the bus pass by the home
the mother dun wan go down.. cause wan to go sg.wang
reach mid valley.. the mother go down.. because the mother know there is a bus from mid valley to sg.wang
wait at the bus stop.. the weather very hot..
the sun... very strong..
the mother's head start to headache.. start to not feeling well..
then the bus come..

go up the bus..
the situation getting worse..
stuck in the traffic jam in Tun Sambatan..
headache.. fever... very hot...
reach kl sentral.. the mother canot tahan already.. and see the time.. the event already started..
if reach sg.wang.. the event maybe finish already...
yet.. don't know the son wan to see this lamp or not..

the mother go down from bus.. and go take other bus to go home..
reach home.. the mother already cannot tahan..
the mother fall sick again.... headache..
take a nap.. after wake up still sick..

when the mother will recover...?

The mother and son story...

once upon a time..there are a poor family living in the small town
the family only consists of the mother, the son..
the father already run away from the family...
therefore the mother need to work to get money and rise the son..

the mother.. works very hard to get money and use all the money to pay for the school fee for the son..

in the point of view of the mother..
the mother hope the son will study.. and grow up to become a successfull man in future..so that they will have a bright future...
the mother always ask the son to focus on study...

but in the point of view of the son..
the son always see his mother working hard.. from morning until night..for the little money...
and use all the money to pay for the school fee...
the son feel very sad.. the son feel like wan to help the mother.. to share the burden..
he dun like to see his mother working so hard..
so everytime.. when need to go to school.. he skip the class.. and go to work part time...
to hope to get the money.. and help to release the mother's burden..

one day.. the mother find out.. that the son always skip the class.. then the mother scold.. the son.. they argue... they feel unhappy..... they feel sad...

since that day.. the mother always force the son to study... always ask the son to study.. study.. study...and dun let the son to go to work part time..

the son don't understand why his mother.. so angry.. and dun let him to help her..
the son.. think of run away from the family..by this way.. the son think that..he is her mother burden also.. if dun have him in the family.. then her mother no need work so hard.. and use all the money to pay for the school fee...

at this point.. there are 2 choice for the son to choose...
1)Run away from the family... and no study...
2)stay in the family and Study study study...

what will you choose??? 1 or 2?
.......
.....
...
.
if the son choose 1- run away from the family.. and no study..
what do you think the story will become?
how do you think.. about the mother's feeling?
i think that, from this moment on ward.. the mother will be very sad...
the mother.. will .... maybe search thru everywhere.. for the son that run away from the family..
will this is more burden and sad for the mother?
.. i think you can imagine that... how the story will become.. after that..

if the son choose 2- stay in the family.. and study study study...
for this choice.. what do you think the story will become?
will this is a better choice?
the mother.. after that.. will still working hard.. for money to pay for the school fees..
and hope the son will study well...
but for the son... the son maybe will think that her mother is unreasonable...
why dun let him help her..
maybe some argue.. will happen...
but after the son grow up.. after the son finish study..
finally... the son will understand.. why her mother wan him to focus on study..
after study.. the son.. able to get a better job with better salary to support the family..
from that onward.. the family burden become less...
the son realize.. his mother's dream...
the son also felt very sorry.. because.. keep on argue with his mother last time...
he realize when argue.. this make more burden to the mother..
from here onward.. the son always working hard.. to get more money... and give the best and the most comfortable life to his mother...


~~~ Story Finish ~~~

.. maybe you think that this is rubbish...
hm.. anyway.. if you understand the hidden meaning.. you will realize the reason of the things that you did before.. or the things that other person did on you before...

if you didn't see the gold inside now.. maybe next time you see again.. then only you realize the gold is actually inside...

still got many gold inside...

just :)


from

something that you don't know...

i did this before we chat...

i change my friendster foto today.. and post up all the foto that i like.. and related to my feeling..

but i didn't change the status...

why?

because i hope to show out my feeling...

i delete all my foto.. means without you.. i have nothing...

every photo don't have caption.. because.. i found out that each word that i said you also dun like..

but there are two photo that have numbers.. which is 1 and 2... this indicate..

the no 1.. everything.. is very nice.. like the butterflies .. the impossible to become possible.. the 2d paper.. can make it to become the 3d butterflies flying.. like we both on the beginning..

the no 2... there is the spider that harming that butterflies.. what i can do?

where is no 3? i dunno... but i'm waiting...

at the same time.. i'm hope to get the new photo of us to upload to there.. but i still didn't get it..

to hope have a -refresh

and update the friendster...

ya.. if have time.. can send me the photo that i don't have to me?

i changed my blog layout..

didn't chat and see you.. my mood totally down.. black colour suit me...

hope one day .. the layout.. can change back to become... nice...

that day i search thru whole shopping complex just to find you.. and hope to be with you when you are down.. after skating a while.. my leg a bit pain.. but still walk very fast.. search every floor.. every shop to find you... after found you.. i think i can acc you and calm you down.. but you scold me with.. "go back down there.. i dun wan to see you".. my feeling really no good.. when seeing both of you walking away from me to the car park.. then i didn't join them back.. i find somewhere hide my self..

that day you scold me.. that i'm like a 3 years old kids..dunno independence..

if not mistaken.. i never give ppl scold like that before..

nvm..

but.. why i wan to act like this?

am i really dunno independence?

i act like this because.. i know someone.. dun like and scare of new place, strange enviroment, stranger..

her cute reaction when run out from the toilet.. and said to me.. the toilet dun have anybody.. looks very scary..

that why i wan to acc her in new job so that she won't feel alone...

ok la.. haih...

you already think that this new shoe is not fit you.. and wan to throw it away...

but i can tell you that the shoe size didn't change.. since from you test it and buy it.. and bring back...

you should know what is actually has changed...

before you throw.. i just hope you will hear my advice...

i don't wan repeat and say again de...

wish you all the best..

if can.. keep in touch...

and thank you to bring me to Heaven..

i'm really happy..to be with you.. . sometime.. you are really cute.. and i loved it.. :)

the last time you cute to me.. is during that time.. you run out from the toilet.. feel like wan to hug you to protect you from anything...

if wan to talk.. still got manything can talk.. but...

okok..

bb..

see you..

hope you anything also don't think first..

concerntrate on your study..

good luck...

gambateh..

frm

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

by Mary Stevenson

Vast

Source : http://blueserver.org/forum/viewtopic.php?t=31206

Learn to love and learn to let go, Look above and what It shows? You see, the sky is very vast, and so is this world and its population. Our affection towards somebody might last long, but we have assorted emotions in ourself, don't let affection take it all. Yes, affection might have all the other feelings in it as well, but the package is not that good if you can't afford it.

It sure hurts more or less when you saw the girl you like with her boyfriend. But what is more important is that you would be able to cheer her up when she is sad and be able to at least communicate with her. Being unable to talk to the one you like might be hellish, and it takes away you last chance of come back in succeeding a relationship.

What is that much of contrast between a friend and a boyfriend if you can think from another perspective? Yes, a boyfriend sure does have more advantages compared to a friend, but still, it is all about showing her your care. Though this world is realistic, this is not too much dramatic. We don't think about ONE SINGLE THING 24 hours a day no matter how sad, how hurt or how pain we are. Some people looks very sad for a long time because they simply couldn't abandon the feeling that switching between emotions instantly instead of gradually looks awkward. We tend to think about other thing when we're supposed to concentrate in thinking how sad we are, no matter what. The matter is that whether you're optimist enough to look cheerful again as fast as possible.

Think clearly, feel freely, and you shall see the sun shining brighter than usual. Don't bind yourself to only one thing. Human tend to seek more than one to bind to in their life.

"Pain struck only when your memories reminded you, it vanish when the memories are out of the view."

Cheers,
Dz

...love

Source:[fu]dark

Hmm... to think about love in the idealistic way such as that love will always be sweet and smooth all the way to eternity is a bunch of immature crap. Love as how we see in drama/movie or any other sources are always made in a idealistic way. How they meet under the arrangement of fate, how they love other forever and ever in peace in all those fairy tales, they're not practical. Reality is not cruel, it just have some extra taste in it.

Human often have affection towards more than one person. At first you might think that I'll only pay attention my girlfriend/boyfriend and not any other. But when you really ask yourself, I believe that sometimes you'll look at other. No matter how little it is. Don't take love as all, it is just part of all. Don't throw all your feeling and devotion into it. Eternity is a funny word, used on us who have limited time. However, the opposition will usually be flattered when you said that you're going to be with them for eternity

Love is merely a deeper definition of care, that usually make one more responsible and stuff, especially when we first start to love someone. Love will fade, completely or not, is another matter. When two person had been together for a long time, no doubt that they will not feel as good as when they first start to date/come together. They might flashback about what happened when they first date and say about how good they feel at that time. But well, they don't really get the feeling back anyway, they're just telling you what they remember from that time, or the feeling they're now.

Human is a social animal, they need a partner around. Be caring and patient, and may you find a partner that suits you well. Sweet, sour, bitter or whatever doesn't matter, as long as you all still have each other to taste them together. Take in the count of life's pressure and try to suit yourself with it. Being tolerative is a good way to maintain a relationship. (Don't take those kiddo love in count, they usually doesn't have that much of affection. Do they?)

Pigs

Type of Pigs that found in my sms...

~^~
<) ". ." (>
( (") )
Pig with Caps

<) " . . " (>
( (@@) )
Big Nose Pig

<) n n (>
.("(oo)").
(|)--(|)
Happy Pig

(^00^)V
Slim V Pig

(>"_ _"<)
( (pp) )
(,,,) -- (,,,)
Sleepy Fat Pig

*."".**."".**."".*
((..) )( (..) )( (..))
('')('') ('')('') ('')('')
3 Lucky Piggy

, *<). .(>. '* .
" ((..), )* ",
' _/,/, )S_,,,,
, ' '((,/ '''''.
Hairy Porker flying


Many types of Pigs..
Only got one mission..
Which is, sending the wishes..
From the sender to the receiver..

~~Happy Chinese New Year~~

Definition of Happiness

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”

“People love others not for who they are but for how they make them feel”

“Love is when the other person's happiness is more important than your own.”

“The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be”

“If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things.” (Albert Einstein)

“It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about.” (Dale Carnige)

“Happiness is like a kiss...you must share it to enjoy it.”

Pig Equivalent

Human = eat + sleep + work + enjoy
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Human = Pigs + work + enjoy
if, Human - enjoy = Pigs + work
in other words,
Human that don't know enjoy = pigs that work
Men = eat + sleep + earn money
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Men = Pigs + earn money
if Men - earn money = Pigs
in other words,
Men that don't earn money = Pigs

Women = eat + sleep + spend
Pigs = eat + sleep
Hence, Women = Pigs + spend
if, Women - spend = Pigs
In other words,
Women that don't spend = Pigs
Summary:
Men earn money not to let women become pigs!
Women spend not to let men become pigs!

Men + Women = 2 Pigs
Wish all the pigs happy forever.

Really meaningful :)

"Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
’Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day, It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over."

- Anonymous -

Something you might not know....

credit : aishiteru4

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are:
I love you.
I’m sorry.
Help me.

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?
Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face?
But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do..

The Science of Luck

THE SCIENCE OF LUCK


Why do some people get all the luck while others never get the breaks they deserve? A psychologist says he has discovered the answer.

Subject: The luck factor!
By Professor Richard Wise man, University of Hertfordshire

Ten years ago, I set out to examine luck. I wanted to know why some people are always in the right place at the right time, while others consistently experience ill fortune.

I placed advertisements in national newspapers asking for people who felt consistently lucky or unlucky to contact me. Hundreds of extraordinary men and women volunteered for my research and, over the years, I have interviewed them, monitored their lives and had them take part in experiments.

The results reveal that although these people have almost no insight into the causes of their luck, their thoughts and behavior are responsible for much of their good and bad fortune.

Take the case of seemingly chance opportunities. Lucky people consistently encounter such opportunities, whereas unlucky people do not.

I carried out a simple experiment to discover whether this was due to differences in their ability to spot such opportunities. I gave both lucky and unlucky people a newspaper, and asked them to look through it and tell me how many photographs were inside.

I had secretly placed a large message halfway through the newspaper saying:
"Tell the experimenter you have seen this and win #250." This message took up half of the page and was written in type that was more than two inches high.

It was staring everyone straight in the face, but the unlucky people tended to miss it and the lucky people ended to spot it.

Unlucky people are generally more tense than lucky people, and this anxiety disrupts their ability to notice he unexpected. As a result, they miss opportunities because they are too focused on looking for something else.

They go to parties intent on finding their perfect partner and so miss opportunities to make good friends.
They look through newspapers determined to find certain types of job advertisements and miss other types of jobs.

Lucky people are more relaxed and open, and therefore see what is there rather than just what they are looking for. My research eventually revealed that lucky people generate good fortune via four principles.
They are skilled at creating and noticing chance opportunities, make lucky decisions by listening to their intuition, create self-fulfilling prophesies via positive expectations, and adopt a resilient attitude that transforms bad luck into good.

Towards the end of the work, I wondered whether these principles could be used to create good luck. I asked a group of volunteers to spend a month carrying out exercises designed to help them think and behave like a lucky person.

These exercises helped them spot chance opportunities, listen to their intuition, and expect to be lucky, and be more resilient to bad luck.

One month later, the volunteers returned and described what had happened.

The results were dramatic: 80% of people were now happier, more satisfied with their lives and, perhaps most important of all, luckier. The lucky people had become even luckier and the unlucky had become lucky.

Finally, I had found the elusive "luck factor".

Here are Professor Wise man's four top tips for becoming lucky:
- Listen to your gut instinct -they are normally right.
- Be open to new experiences and breaking your normal routine.
- Spend a few moments each day remembering things that went well.
- Visualize yourself being lucky before an important meeting or telephone call.

Luck is very often a self-fulfilling prophecy.

now wet not because of him,is u

"he din make my book wet
he treat me well
juz u think he always make my book wet

u always down
i dun wan see u like tis
last time u not like tis eh
after wit me...
ur mood was not stable"

after with you.. yah... my mood maybe not stable...
but.. i can say.. i'm very happy.. during the happy time..
you bring me to the world.. that i never go b4..
i'm like that feeling..
i like this world..
and.. you dun all blame your self..
you like to carry other ppl bag..

i give you example...
like we now... are student...
enjoying the student life..
then after graduate.. we will go to the real working world..
we find the job.. get in to the company..
during that time..
everything will be not stable...
during the beginning..
maybe not able to handle so many jobs..
maybe not able to cope with the colleague..
maybe......

but.. after sometime..
some ppl will change the job and the company..

but some ppl will like the company very much..
i realize.. i'm really happy to work in this company..
during the working hour time.. i like to do my works..
sometime.. after working hour.. i still thinking the jobs in the company..

of course.. some time.. the job and works.. are not meet the expectation...
it is normal.. to the company.. yet..
the most important things is..
the staff will learn from the mistake..
and improve in the future..

the company are growing.. and the staff also..


now.. is the staff will make the company become wet?