the3rd day...i lost yyou

the third day..
today is Valentine's day..
today wake up early.. prepare things..
and plan a "special project" on tonight..
already prepare... nice shirt to change after work..
already prepare a rose for you..
already plan the place to bring you to go..

yet.. i know you won't give me chance...
you just treat me as "best friend"
ok la.. i know.. but... i know a good place for her to hang out...
so that today.. i plan to bring her go..
maybe this is the last time.. i bring her go out already..
(*of course.. in deep deep heart.. don't wish this is the last time..)

anyway..
today reach your house...
and tried to call you.. to wake you up..
hm.. i get waiting in the on hold mode..
hm..... so i just let you finish your call only open the door for me..

go inside..
of course.. very hope to go in to the room..
next time.. got no chance to come here again already..
i try to take picture...
take take take.. to save all the memories in the picture..
the chairs... the table.. the fans..
the bed.. the cupboard....
i'm very missed that place..

and most important.. i plan to every morning.. to take a couple picture with you..
so that at this ending road..i still have some nice memories..
don't know next time.. when still got chance to take picture with you..

then i ask you to go out at the night..
and you rejected..
hm...
nvm...

back to working place..
today many things to do...
keep on rush rush..
yet very very very lazy and no mood to do things..
keep on seeing msn... looking for someone..
but don't dare to send msg..

then... later on.. have to go meet customer...
talk talk talk..
omg.. i'm LATE...
really scare..
keep on rushing my friend.. to drive... >.<
finally.. also able to reach..
and fetch her to go..
perodua center... for buying new car..
so that next time.. no need i fetch already..

after that.. she bring me.. to dinner.. with one more friend..
indicating.. me is just her best friend..

the rose send to her.. but she also no take back home...
the nice shirt.. prepare on the boot.. but never wear...
the plan to bring her to walk.. didn't success...

after all..
back to home... also have to work.. and rush project..
wish to call her.. because didn't see her online..
but i know... she doesn't expecting my call..
wish to call her... and wish her good night...
but.. i think that wish.. will make her.. feel annoying also..

nvm la..
tomolo bring her to put order already..
after 2-3 week.. we will never see already..

everytime.. see her.. also got a feel.. and rush.. to hug her..
see her's hand.. really wish to grab her hand....

but all...all... all....
already.. can't...

good night to you...

the 2nd day...i lost yyou

...
today so lazy to go work..
go work wait lunch time..
lunch time wait.. finish work

lazy lazy lazy ah...
don't wan work ah..

today the second day without yyou..
i also try many way.. to keep you back..
but all end up.. no use..

today i bring you go test drive..
as you said.. you wish to buy a new car so that next time no need i fetch you already..

hehe.. after test drive..
then i bring you to one romantic place.. to "chang table leg"..
haha.. ordered the couple set.. LOL
but.. you keep on remind me.. that we both are only best friend..

but.. see you sekejap angry liow.. because i drive wrong road..
really..
don't so angry la.. =.=
drive here drive there.. also wish to bring you to a good place to dine ma...

tomolo is valentines day..
i already book her..
and ask her to go out with me..

anyway.. i know.. you just treat me as a "best friend"
anyway.. today i come out with these phases.. it sound so deep.. yet.. so simple..
LOL

"..
i also don't wish ...
but now i have to slow slow lo..
slow slow help her.. to leave me..
and hope one day.. she will come back to me.."

today i try so hard.. to hug you..
hug hug hug..
this is the last time i can hug you..
no more... no more...
as normal..my eyes very "thick"..
can't tahan.. then i cried..

anyway.. today i tell myself..
i have to grow..
come out bleed blood.. also can't cry..
=.=

recently.. really like this song..
Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love..
and i also like the song's Music Video...

the 1st day...i lost yyou

today is the first day...we separate..
trying many way to recover it..
yet...
you are still no feeling..

since that day.. see you keep on sms with someone..
keep on calling with someone and chat for long time...
you got any problem.. also will call this people..
i don't know... what this people told you..

and since that night you go out with your friend at the beach..
you already changed..

you are not the yy that i know before..

every time trying to call you...
my call hang in the on hold...
every time i trying to call you..
you are chatting.. with other people.. on the line..

ok la..
type.. then erase back..
type then erase back..
dunno write what..
yet many things to write

ok..
your action..
your reaction..
your behavior..
showed all..

i know de..
i know de..

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wow.. here come another story..
today i drive alone to mid valley..
normally mid valley.. very hard to find parking.. >.<
i also a bit scare to go there..
but.. i also have to go.. @@

but.. today quite good.. i round a while.. i found my parking just at in front of the door there.. hehe... so lucky..

then i go eat.. good food..
as i call good food.. it is means.. expensive food >.< $$$$$$
eat eat eat..
free flow fruit juice.. (* of course.. need to pay the price $$$$$)

hehe.. the fish is delicious...

after eat.. then... hang around awhile.. and of course... wow..
go gamble lu...
at that time.. already a bit tired.. and sleepy..
gamble gamble gamble..
remember back last time i also at the same place..
also gambling... at there..
but that time is diff...
i'm more happier.. >.<
y?
because that time.. i got one ppl keep on "jau" me lose money..
keke.. naughty this ppl..
this year.. diff lu..
i play alone..
no target..
no motivation..
play play play..
finally lose the money.. and then go a side sit.. and hang a while..
>.<
ppl said..
"choi san yan on lok"
means.. lose all money.. then only ppl will feel steady..
haih.. dunno la..

wu... back home lu.. this time.. parking no good.. >.<
the right hand side mirror.. bang a bit to the besi there.. >.<
don't know why the floor there.. inside got a hole..
krat.......
tuuuukk....
#.#

faster park it.. and go home..
argh...
i wan go toilet..
>.<
dunno is it drink too much.. fruit juice.. and mix all diff kind of juice..
rush to toilet... >.<
on the rush.. i simple check my mirror and it is no problem..i think

hu.. reach home...
i plan to write back my nonsense blog..
maybe last time after watch the drama...
so now i also wan to follow the drama...
haha...

good night...
don't sleep so late lo...
>(//DREAM//)<

if sleep so late, later do many facial also can't help... >.<